Totally sucks & down

WTF....I really hate myself..

Y i so stupid..naive..to him..my father..

Oh man..my mood totally down and sad..

Feel like crying...every words u told u me..

It is stabbing my heart badly..stepping on my dream hardly..

I also don't know why!!!Why would I so stupid not ambitious..

I really really LOVE animals..I really really love..i admit..i never deny..

Especially cat

everyone has a dream...and now..for me.never think before what is the ambition i like the most

I finally make up my mind...I wanna be a veterinarian for real..

I really searched the website about the information very very hardworking..

The results unsatisfied me..Only UPM has the best..others college seems like doesn't offer veterinarian to study in Malaysia

The results make my heart break..Because mom say if really wan study veterinarian,better choose college..

I cry also at that time..because i was stress out..when I found out it totally sucks!

Malaysia REALLY REALLY don't pay a lot attention to veterinarian

At Late night 4.25am..

Crying alone here..sigh..for me..I rarely cry..the one who knows me will know..

I'm sad..Why i chose science stream..i chose because there are more option

i chose because I might get interested in science stream

And it does prove that I like science stream!!

without science stream..I wouldn't know my friends that well..

Without entering science stream,I wouldn't know 4 & 5 teratai is so FUN!!

We are not like most of the science stream which MOSTLY nerd..

I love my teachers..i love my friends...I love my life together with them

You always tell me to be a doctor..You always say doctor earns a lot

I know..In this world,everyone sick will find doctor and consume medicine

I know..If you're a surgeon for human..It can earns a lot..even many many thousands

I know..you are think for my own good...You scare I won't earn enough money for myself

I know..you love me..I know you facing the cruel world that we can't survive without money

I know..I know..I REALLY KNOW!!

For my interest..

I really hope that i can be a veterinarian..Why can't you support me?

I know it's hard from the start..Because in Malaysia not everyone will purposely find the veterinarian just for their pets..

Our economy is not that good..I know..I know..
All the cost will just rise..It won't drop..That's the REALITY

I finish my SPM...I'll face the reality of world soon..

Before asking you..I ask him..he loves everyone..especially her "daughter"

He really support me..and even suggest me to do dentist..

Don't know why..I feel appreciate and happy..

Because...at last..at last someone is supporting me..

But..why you..do this to me..

Do you know that when u explaining to me..I laying on your back..listen to you..

Actually..my tears drop...without control..

I used my strength within my heart..trying to argue with you..

telling you..I wanna open a way..

There are few people involving in this field in Malaysia,that's the chance for me to make business!!It's less competitive...So,maybe I could chase my dream..Earn money..

TTC's boss..Lim You Tian...he also suggest we all to choose the path we like..

So that at the end we won't regret,we won't unhappy with our job,so that we won't be too late at the end to change our occupation!

At this moment,4.40am..

I'm exhausted..cold..heart break..

I feel much more better now expressing my feelings and thought with this blog..

exposing to anyone who interested to read my blog..

Actually it's not a shame to cry..It's just the easiest way to release your stress and feeling..

I will just continue..my life..my way..Maybe..I'll change my mind..give up to study veterinarian...

I don't know..my heart is confusing..my mind is empty now..

I hope..my heart will recover soon..After a sleep..Maybe it will be much more better..

nights...

Moody..frustratin....

ARHHH...sucks la wei...these few days..

once i hv the heart to buy stuff..I feel so damn hurt..

Something happened..feel so down..I really hate s0meone tat is useless!!!

Wat i mean by useless is ask for money,sympathy but him or herself do NOTHING at ALL!!

How old are u?!!Aren't u found a job..Aren't ur life is more steady?!!

Y u still keep on ask for money when u dun hv?!!!

I know you are nt a big spender..Bt could u stop mixing around wif the 1 WHO ARE BAD?!!

WTF..if dun hv money,DUN HELP LA!!Y must u pretend to be like the HERO?!!

They duno tat u borrow money!!! They are FILTHY!! GET AWAY FROM THEM!!!

Do u noe that the money i kept really really HARD?!!!

FOR A BIG SPENDER LIKE ME

I FEEL Like KILLING U!!!THE ONE WHO KNOWS ME..THEY KNOW I'M BAD TEMPERED

IF NT BECOZ OF HER!!I WON'T BORROW U $$

IT'S NT FEW RINGGIT!!

IT'S TOTALLY MORE THAN TAT 100 TIMES!!!

I LOVE HER,I RESPECT HER..I ONLY TRY TO HELP HER!!

I REALLY SCARE TAT I CAN'T GET THE MONEY BACK...

NOW I'M REGRET..

I SHOULD BE A BAD GIRL!!I SHOULDN'T HELP HER!!

SOME MORE SHE LOVES BRO MORE..WHAT FOR I HELP HER?!!

WHAT CAN I GET N EXPECT FROM HER?!!

SO DISSAPOINTED..ONCE I C BOTH OF U GT TOGETHER..

MY HEART STARTS TO BURN..FEELING KICKING U ALL...PUNCHING U ALL..

TORTURE U ALL...TEAR IN TO PIECES!!!!!!!!

I'M SO WICKED..I ADMIT!!

NOWADAYS THE STUPID RELATIVES STAY SOME MORE FOR 2 WEEKS!!!

STILL DUN WAN TO GO AWAY..FUCK U!!!

DON'T FORCE I SCOLD IN FRONT OF U ALL..EVEN RELATIVES HERE..

NT ONLY IN FRONT CHILDREN!!!I'LL YELL AT U ALL TAT I HATE U ALL COME HERE!!!

=O=!!!!!!IF TMR...U MAKE ME ANGRY ONCE MORE...I'LL TELL U KIDS!!!

I HATE U ALL!!!STAYING HERE!!!!!USING THE AIR COND LIKE UR OWN HOUSE!!

U WANNA VISIT GRANDPARENTS AS A REASON!!!?!!

OK!!fINE!!!I LET U TAKE AWAY GRANDPARENTS N TAKE HOME!!

DON'T U DARE?!!!PISS OFF!!!SUCH A LAME REASON!!!

...............HOW...GETTING MORE N MORE FEEL LIKE SLAPPING THEM....

I SHOULD PUT SOME WATER...TO EXTINGUISH MY FIRE..

-.-.|.

SPM seems so fast...

It's 4th day..4 subjects BM,BI,History and Maths already done~

OMG..It's like..huh?It's finish?

Life seems more n more fast n shorter

Hmm..I'm gonna pack my books n room after SPM..

^~^ totally can imagine a whole buck of stuffs will be throw or recycle~

That time~Mom won't have any excuse to blame me to pack stuff~~~

Pocket money ah pocket money...I dislike SPM..1 of the reason is YOU

Since SPM start..my pocket money deduct RM5...

ToT...do u noe tat it's a lot to me as a big spender...=X

Let me count n c..since last time started ponteng..no pocket money n now..

=.="" I lost quite a lot..Mom..Hahaha..can i hv an option tat without going school gt pocket money??

Totally impossible..-.-..mission impossible..

Nvm~~~Now I'll concentrate on my studies first~~Once it's done..

Maybe~~Go to find a part time job~

Gg..It is exciting but I scare oso tiring for me..Becoz I'm lazy n pampered~sigh \(-.-)/..

Wa ngm zai la..but can let me noe how's about real life n society..

It's cruel..Realistic human...tough...

=X...can i stop thinking negative??!!

Hehe..I dun care la~As l0ng i can earn money by myself~

Of course the work must b clean la!!I nt tat negative yet k?

I'm a good girl..Never run away from home ah!!

Wahahahaha...damn perasan..-.-""

Hmm..boh seh liao la..slept already~~

So..later study moral bah~Wahahaha...Pls bless me~~~

Get good resultSssS!!!!For all please!!!

-.-" kind of..iritating,annoying

Mm..I know..once u gt a bf..u will post ur lovely pic wif him~~

I know~~Both of u r so loving~~ I know I know~~

DUno y..no mood study now!!!Once i go to facebook relax my mind...

UR FACE will suddenly appear on my facebook page..wif some1..

Oh my GOSH....=o=....Feel so nausea....u r really a BITCH....

ARRHHH...can't stand anymore.....I don't think u'll read my blog..SO DO I!!

Ok..actually I'm nt tat hate u...Jz Ur attitude..more n more..AARRRHHH..wat can I SAY?!!

At first,

Bef0re tat incident...u like to lc tat u use real branded stuFF

**HAHAHA..actually it's imitate..y u wan lc jek??SO CHEAP!!ppl ask jz admit la..-.-" becoz u really use imitate stuff wat..Admit already then next time say it's real again~Wala0~wat a beautiful lie~If it's real~COOL!!U can do magic!!Y dun u do on others too??!**

Aren't u r the 1 who say dun wan together wif him anymore??

Aren't u the 1 who say he so bad?!

Aren't u the 1 who tell all UR FRENS tat u won't be together wif him?

ACTUALLY,I dunno 1...jz ur frens some of them r my frens TOO

Honestly,U're 17 already kay?Can u dun b so childish...?

I dun like liars..So STOP TALKING CRAP HERE..

U DON'T WANT MEANS DON'T WANT...

IF U WANT JZ ADMIT IT

DON'T EVER SAY YOU DON'T WANT

I KNOW THIS IS UR CHOICE..

BUT MY EYES ARE MINE..NT I PURPOSELY WANNA C U

ACTUALLY,I DUN REALLY CARE ABT U XD

So..from now on..i tell myself...IF I C UR PIC ANYMORE....I WILL LAUGH TAT

YOU ARE SUCH A CHEAP XXXX?!!

=X SRY..MY MOUTH REALLY IS TAT BAD..

WANNA NOE WAT'S TAT??

IF U DARE..ASK ME~BUT I DON'T THINK U WILL ADMIT U R THE 1??

NAH...U WON'T READ MY BLOG..

It's 3 smth...Kind of tired...Tata..

OMG...1 more min left..

Haha..It's 12.01..

It is graduation day!!

To me,

As long as I don't look ugly then it's enough le!!HAHAHA

Mm..a lot of feelings mix together le~~

I'll be miss all my frens..Although I'll still meet them during SPM =X

How leh~~After SPM we'll be less c each other le..

Mmm..who gonna let me bully leh~~??

Haha..no la..most important miss all my frens n 5 teratai students!!

Lolx...Teratai..Haiz..as good example of all students..

NAH!!That's what teachers think..

Who say science class students must be nerd and quite??

Who say we must always come to school and dun be like other classes ponteng?!!

Y blame us and say disappointed becoz most of us as TERATAI ponteng??

So damn pissed off..-.-
Now a great explanation..N I'm Gonna prove n show to u!!Especially..Pn Vaxxxxxx

Our class is totally interesting & fun..nt like sp so damn...boring...-.-""

Totally nt our style!!

I love 5 teratai 2010!!

We are the most unique 1 compare to last time 1...

becoz the senior noe how to "hit horse ass" in chinese XD

They dun dare to do things like us....becoz i think they dun hv GUTS??Who knows..

To me~I absolutely like 5 teratai no matter how u think~Becoz we ROCK!!

Furthermore,we broke a lot of records..Hahahaha..

xxxxXXXX WiSHes XXXXXxxxx

~All 5 teratai students get good results!!

~We all will still keep in touch!!

I'm a nt bad internet user n gamer~~

Hahaha..quite satisfy today~

Spend time to change my blog's background..Hello kitty~~

Yeah~Meow meow~~Cute!!MUakS!!

=.= seow chen this time i helped u,next time dun call the stupid SQ!!!

Duno himself so damn stupid still act clever..

/.\..dun say I selfish already ah~i help u this time oni..-.-

IF U DARE TO CALL OTHERS tat destroy the blog..u sendiri zap sang la..

I oso finish my games~~It's time to off luu~~

LOVE fAther...muaks..today too hungry ate 6 bowls rice..HAha..father dun mind ^^~

Hehe..duno he mind or not leh..-.- nowadays more n more fat le....

HOW AH!!!dun feel like starving myself to on diet le....=o=

Today is a GREAT day~

Haha..u must be guessing y m i say today is a great day~

Today,mom purposely sent me n my bro went to cinema to watch movie~

Actually we all wan to watch together but she suddenl

y dun wan =X say wan play Ryan woh..Go relative's house

She gave us money n leave us ther le~ Nvm~~

We watch despicable me!! Yeah~~!! Honestly,i dun think the guy handsome XD

But kind of interesting n exciting to me! It's far better than shrek happily forever after

T.T kind of regret~Should watch 3D but i scare i vomit...When the scene during the roller coaster..It's definitely cool n exciting if u watch in 3D

VERY FUNNY the movie~~!Especially the yellow thingy in the movie~

Haha..insane..stupid but funny~~!!Feel like wan to hv 1 !! ^o^

After tat we go eat papajohn's pizza!!Hehe..quiet delicious!

MY bro in the cinema...we didn't eat breakfast so buy a jumbo popcorn!!

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At night~I hv some entertainment oso~

Today we went to celebrate my great grandmother's birthday~~

Unbelievable n Happy..She's 91 years old already..

I'm appreciate that she's still here..That night when we celebrating..Gt 2 butterfly come..

For chinese,it mayb our ancestor ..I hope tat were my great grandfather..

For the video~I think better read my brother's blog le~HE gt a more HIGH TECH n COOl hp than me..So I didn't take video

Great grandmother..po tai ah~~I'm really honour n happy tat u r happy..

I hope tat u can live happily everyday..No matter wat happen..You r still my great grandmother

I won't forget u..So dun b sad..if ur sons..didn't treat u good~AT least u gt good daughters n we all grandchildren remember n celebrate wif u~!!!Love ya..

She looks so happy when saw the cake

Haha..everyone claps n sing for her...Tat's Ryan..He help great grandmother to blow candles too!!