I even didn't remember last post is when i wrote it....
Suddenly have the inspiration to write my blog...
I remember my purpose open this blog is to share my feelings....Just like a diary to me
I know myself..I'm a careless & clumsy person.. Not always remember stuff or even sometimes forgot about it
That's the reason why I every time write this blog to share my happy,sad memories..
Don't really know why..last time when I'm a kid especially primary that time..My memory is SERIOUSLY good and not a clumsy careless person...
I memorized phone numbers, birthdays, moments I've been..
Honestly, since small that time getting more and more sad things happened on me..I tried to hypnose myself..
Please shuet wah..you remember the stuff so what..? not everyone treat the same way as you does, please keep lie to yourself, try to avoid all these hurts....
At last now..I really did it..sometimes I did really incredibly forgot stuff.. =P
Now, I really don't know doing such thing is it beneficial to me..I am doing so because I'm trying to avoid facing the truth..protect myself from being hurt again...
To me, as a girl in this family.. I don't feel like be like others normal girls that easily cry in front of others that's why I always need to be tough, be strong, fierce than the others..so..others don't dare to bully you..
I know..until now I haven't 100% open my heart to anyone....I bet..not everyone share every single things within their hearts..
That's the reason why I feel quite lonely and helpless, we keep our secrets so we still having ourself defending for our weakest part...
At the same time, I felt sorry for the one who cares about me..He tried to dig out everything in my heart to understand me but I just can't do it..
I don't know why suddenly I'm so emotional...I'm lazy decorating this post..I just want to speak out my feeling..
Every human is not perfect, that's the reason why we can't live alone in this world..we need to help each other..sometimes even need others to correct our mistakes..
Romanticized version will be...Our souls is not perfect, in this world, everyone try their best to find their soul mate, to have a perfect soul...
宙斯把灵魂一击为两半，每一般都在地球上飘游，寻找自己的另一半。当其中一半遇到真正的另一半时，这两人都深深沉醉于爱、友谊与亲密的惊喜中，片刻也不能让对方离开自己的视线。这些人共度一生，却无法解释对于彼此的热望。因为他们对彼此的强烈渴望并不是恋人的缠绵，而是灵魂深切渴望、却无法形容的另一种特质，只有一丝朦胧而含糊的预感
Honestly, I am a human, I have feelings..obviously I will jealous others sometime, not everytime I also can be so calm and say ya..I don't mind at all...
I am a girl who can't stand keep using SAME reason, I rather you say sorry and just tell me, if got chance you only try to do so..even though I tried to be a good gf..
Don't give me fake hope and reasons..I seriously hate them terribily..
You can feel I'm unhappy but you can't take back the words you told me that already hurt my heart...
Today... I will hug tight my pillow...after having a cold feelings... I will forget all the bad things that happened on me~ happily face another new day..
I know time will continue keep going...past means past.. You can't do anything to take back the time because it's already past..
Good night blog..thank you for let me typing all these words..releasing my emotional..
